semiserious

an internalnet diablog
February 10
Maybe I’ll just post my petty personal problems under cute pictures of dogs and then later delete the text?  That blonde boy I messaged on Grindr actually did message me back at 3 a.m. Turns out he was at the Zola Jesus show. We chatted today. He told me I looked like John Maus. I think I might be inlove with anyone who mentions Zola Jesus and John Maus on Grindr. Problem is, he lives in Boca Raton. WOMP WOMP! I think I’m missing the part of my brain that knows how to flirt or recognize being flirted with, especially offline. This isn’t a new observation, and yet its finally occurred to me its perhaps something I need to actively work on.  Think I hate dudes who are only into dudes with beards more than I hate dudes with beards themselves. Probably because my latest defense mechanism is to pretend anyone who doesn’t like me is just into dudes with beards. Sorry, I’m a twink above the collar. I’m serving up baby face . What is wrong with that? Is it a “masculinity” issue? Masculinity issues are the worst issues. Listen I can do all sorts of manly shit, to the point that it sometimes surprises me, and I look better doing it without whatever patchy excuse for a beard I could grow, thank you. 

Maybe I’ll just post my petty personal problems under cute pictures of dogs and then later delete the text? 

  • That blonde boy I messaged on Grindr actually did message me back at 3 a.m. Turns out he was at the Zola Jesus show. We chatted today. He told me I looked like John Maus. I think I might be inlove with anyone who mentions Zola Jesus and John Maus on Grindr. Problem is, he lives in Boca Raton. WOMP WOMP!
  • I think I’m missing the part of my brain that knows how to flirt or recognize being flirted with, especially offline. This isn’t a new observation, and yet its finally occurred to me its perhaps something I need to actively work on. 
  • Think I hate dudes who are only into dudes with beards more than I hate dudes with beards themselves. Probably because my latest defense mechanism is to pretend anyone who doesn’t like me is just into dudes with beards. Sorry, I’m a twink above the collar. I’m serving up baby face . What is wrong with that? Is it a “masculinity” issue? Masculinity issues are the worst issues. Listen I can do all sorts of manly shit, to the point that it sometimes surprises me, and I look better doing it without whatever patchy excuse for a beard I could grow, thank you.